For the past 2 1/2 weeks, Amber and I have been in Ohio in the middle of a 4-6 week support trip. With Amber joining me on staff with Campus Crusade, we are needing to raise additional financial support as a married couple. We decided to make it up to her hometown, reconnect with some friends, and maybe even make some new contacts. We packed up our car, and made the loooong 18 hour drive up to Ohio, trusting that we would see God provide a significant chunk of the remaining $3000 we needed in monthly support.
What we didn’t expect was a series of discouraging phone calls, and brick walls on every road we went down. Needless to say, it’s been a very SLOW, discouraging 2 1/2 weeks. And after 6 weeks of not seeing any new monthly support come in, this was not what we were hoping for. The other night, we were both laying in bed, praying and asking God to just give us something. Show up. A little encouragement please. Just something, anything, PLEASE!
And this morning, he answered…
I opened up my Bible to read Deuteronomy 20 (no, not the chapter I normally turn to when I’m discouraged. It was just the next one in my daily reading.)
“When you go out to war against your enemies, and see horses and chariots and an army larger than your own, you shall not be afraid of them, for the LORD your God is with you, who brought you up out of the land of Egypt. And when you draw near to the battle, the priest shall come forward and speak to the people and shall say to them, ‘Hear, O Israel, today you are drawing near for battle against your enemies: let not your heart faint. Do not fear or panic or be in dread of them, for the LORD your God is he who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies, to give you the victory.
Not exactly the same situation. We weren’t going out and facing armies that outnumbered us. But at times that’s how it feels. The amount we need to raise just hangs out there over our heads. In my mind, I want God to give me something, in the form of tangible monetary value. But instead, he gave a gentle reminder – DO NOT FEAR. And that was just enough. That’s exactly what I needed to hear this morning.
We were with some friends tonight, and he reminded me of the story of how God provided for the Jewish people while they were wandering. He gave them manna. Every morning manna would cover the earth, enough to feed them for the day. No more, no less. If they tried to hoard it, it would go bad the next day.
God provided for me today, just what I needed. He spoke to me and reminded me of His goodness, that I’m protected, and I do not need to fear.
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